attachment

"Mommy"
I hear my little Tuthy say next to my pillow in panic.
She wakes from every night time and nap with this intensity for me.
It sounds like pure love...and a sense of loneliness no one should feel
She has always slept with me...at this point always will.
most mornings I am not there for her,.I have headed out to the gym with Papa next to her.
I can't feel guilty for that "me" time but  this day I do.
"I cry when you go to cross fit" she says
we cuddle closer. I kiss her and tell her "I love you"
she snuggles there for a long time.
the boys hop in bed and we all snuggle and read books.
And all is perfect on this kind of morning.
And I can't feel guilty for leaving tomorrow.